Counting the blessings of the year gone by - Reflections on 2006

It's only apt and appropriate for me on this last day of 2006 to reflect on the year gone by...to take a little time before ushering in the new year 2007 to really sit down and write on the events which has happened in this landmark year of my life...which will come to eventually shape the person that i am gonna be...and come to alter my mindset...my personal outlook and philsophy on life...my attitude and my mentality to pple and things ard me...and of coz the things and values that really matters in life...

2006...what a year for me really...the year that defines my life literally...the year which I have come to seek solace in God and accepted the Lord Jesus Christ as my Saviour...Who died on the Cross for all our sins...the year i have found direction in life...the year which saw me travelling almost half the globe away...to places i can only dream of not too long ago...to a totally foreign land so far and so long away from home for the very 1st time in my life...and of coz the year which saw me came this close to death...which totally woke me up and realised juz how fragile life can be...juz how close i came to losing my loved ones and come to treasure most...

the year 2006 could not have come to a more "happening" start with 3 lonely lads mamboing the nite away at expo and spending the 1st hours of the year camping outside the mrt waiting for the 1st train...hahaha...but now one yr on...reduced to 2 lonely lads for my bro ken has found that special someone to spend the 1st hours of the new year and beyond...bro i wish u and cheryl happiness and may the 2 of u always be happy and blissful in each other's company :)

den come no doubt one of the most xiong academic sem i undertook...which saw me challenging myself to handle the equivalent of 7 mods in one sem...glad i pulled thru eventually and gave a decent account of my grades...and of coz Vortigern Entertainment lives on!! muz tell genting to give us a share of their profits lah...we came up with the universal studios idea first k...haha

and off i fly with ken to the american outback barely a few days aft the exams...the experience of a lifetime...the things i saw...the experience i had will stay on etched at the back of my memories for a long long time...the 3 months no doubt gave me a good taste of how it feels like to take care of myself in a faraway country...how to live with one another...work with one another and take care of another...a diff and refreshing experience from the army...and also working and living in a totally new culture and new environment...the cities i have visited...the beautiful scenery and natural creations of God i have witnessed...and of coz the morbid encounter with death...really once a lifetime kind of experience to sum up the whole WAT programme...the summer of 2006...the summer of a lifetime...hee

came back still feelin the aft effects and repercussions of the accident...still pondering abt life and death issues when genie extended an invitation to his church for an evangelistic meeting...and aft a few more gospel meetings...readings of the Bible...came to find my answers in Chirst...muz thank genie once again for building the bridge to rekindle my faith in Chirst again...and the relationship with God is the most important one which one could ever have in his or her lifetime...and i hope thru regular church attendance and reading of the Bible...i will be able to build up my faith and be a better servant and follower of God...

den of coz midway thru the sem when sembcorp came down for a career talk and opened up applications for scholarships which i gamely applied...with an attitude of "no harm trying" & "got den good...dun have also nvm"...it's really a pleasant and wonderful surprise that they r offering me this opportunity thru the scholarship...though it's juz a 2 year bond...i most probly will extend on for aft this 4 weeks of internship...i have come to love and relish the nature and challenges of the job...i really hope to feel that sense and level of accomplishment when u see ur project completed one day...and see ur structure be it a rig or floating structure standing tall...that day will come soon i hope...hee

andden not forgetting the best ever sem i have recorded thus far...if someone tell me at the start of the year that i will be standing at the brink of dean's list...i will ask the person go fly kite...but now the reality is really this...haha...absolutely happy with my grades and now give me much needed confidence to deal with the technically more difficult and advanced mods...

And of coz if anyone tells me i will have such a year at the beginning of 2006...i will really find it hard to believe...i'm realising my dreams one by one...and all these are the blessings by God given to me as i recount each and everyone of them...all these would not have been possible if God has not been there to watch over and guide me thru this life-defining year of 2006...2006...what a year for me really...

Looking to the new year - Resolutions for 2007

2007 is merely hours away as i am typing this...a brand new year comes with it equally brand new resolutions...for this coming new year...i pray for my family...i pray for each of them...Pa, Mummy, Hong & Ying to stay healthy and happy...and that we will continue to learn to love and cherish one another as a family...i pray for my friens...i pray that wherever they are...whatever they r doing...i pray for each and everyone of them...to be happy and fufilled be it their career or studies...i pray for the world...i pray for less wars...less pollution...less global warming...less natural disasters...less virus outbreaks...and that this world will actually come to live in peace and harmony in God's name one day...

and of coz for myself...i pray that i will continue to learn to be a better servant and follower of God...a better son to my parents...a better brother to my sisters...a better friend to my friends...a better student in my studies...i pray in this coming year...that i will continue to gain spiritually, mentally, socially and physically and be a wiser and more mature young adult...next year is the year of the pig...my chinese zodiac year...wah koaz...really old liao...haha

Final Blog Entry

As mentioned this will be my last blogging entry not only for the year...but also for my blogging journey...bringing to an end my 8 months of blogging activity...so friens dun waste time coming here liao...haha...i have really enjoyed my time blogging...abt my days in US and my sem in sch...sharing my life with friens and maybe strangers alike...good times and bad times...and blogging has really been a good avenue to thrash out my fustrations and unhappiness at times too...especially during the stressful semester...haha...would like to again apologise for my sometimes offensive words i have used...so if i have offended anybody (maybe the person offended also not reading liao...haha)...i would like to say a BIG "Sorry"...and also if i come across as too insensitive or even arrogant i.e. haolian at times...would like to ask for ur forgiveness too...i dun mean to be like that...i juz wanna to share my joy with friens...no ill meaning whatsoever...so paiseh ah...

I am glad i have captured like almost 2/3 of my landmark year in this blog...probly a good reading companion when i old nxt time...haha...but also come to realise blogging can be such a double-edged sword...u never know who's gonna read the crap u write (am i right denise? haha)...and maybe not used to it anymore to reveal details of my life so openly...i also dunno how to be discreet sometimes...haha...so i guess good time to stop blogging...maybe at least for now...who knows skarly i start blogging again tomolo...lol...juz joking...even if i do it will be a private blog...or maybe the nxt time i go for a long holiday like WAT (when will it be ah??)...whatever it is...thank you all for reading my lame blog...and bearing with the nonsense i wrote...it's been fun sharing but everything's gonna stop one day eventually...hee

With this...i wish all my readers whoever u r wherever u may be a Happy New Year!! May u have a fruitful and happening year ahead!! God Bless

Signing off...
Leon Low Kok Ming
31st December 2006

Results out on tues!! tahan the whole day never check at the office even though i could have done so using mike's com...purposely dun wanna use the sms service which the sch has provided for more speedy transmission of results (internet connection ain't that reliable these days aftall)...and got home almost 7 hours aft the release of the results at 8pm...and i could not have asked for better den wad i saw the moment i clicked "Login" on the screen...

WAH KOAZ!! I can't believe what i am seeing...the grades on the screen...are they mine?? for a while i was stumped for seconds...before letting out an uncontrollable shout of joy which saw Pa streaming into my room to find out what's going on...his son siao or wad...haha...without a doubt it's my Best Sem thus far...aft breaking last sem's record high...clocked an unprecedented SAP of 4.3!!! I am really very pleased and very satisfied with my results...1st time see so many As under my name on the screen...hahaha...really happy that one sem of hard work has actually paid off...was pleasantly surprised with the A for Gen Bio...and in the end manage to salvage a B for geotech aftall...wheeew...seriously another MA1506...the exact "chui" feeling aft the papers...and now the exact same grade...the power of moderation!! lol...rest of the mods hit my expectations as well...transport and political science both A- and physics B+...so overall my results exceeded my expectations...very happy really...though the icing on the cake would have been 0.2 more and Dean's List!! lol...that close but of coz muz be satisfied cannot be too greedy loh...heh...hopefully can spur me on for my remaining 3sems...consolidate on 2nd lower Hons...2nd Upper is still mathematically possible but technically impossible...haha...will try my best lah hor...but of coz also muz say the mods last sem which i took also technically easier...and it's always these types of jepalang mods which i tend to thrive in and sadly not my core engin mods...hee...most importantly thank God once again for guiding me thru the sem...granting me the perseverance and discipline thru reading wk and the exams especially...Rejoice in Jesus's name...Amen.

still rejoicing in the highs of my results honestly speaking...though the bidding of mods for nxt sem somewhat quickly brought me down to earth...sianz muz plan to take wad mods so fast again...means sch is starting again...crossed my mind to actually wanna finish my studies in 7 sems which means grad end of nxt yr...budden realise have to start FYP nxt sem plus yr 4 mod on top of my yr 3 mods...definitely will die lah even b4 i can see the sunrise of 2008...haha...so decided against it in the end...wiser to follow by the conventional rules...anyway my very last sem will be super slack...enjoy while i can b4 toiling in the shipyard...heh...

on the shipyard frt...it's been pretty normal for me this wk...gotta go out to another shipyard with aloy and mike on tues...spent an aftnoon there looking at the spud cans of the rig...while the bosses decide on how to load and bring back to our base...now muz start tinking of how to write my report...nxt week ending attachment liao...need to submit a report...wah the 1st headache of 2007...heh...got the news frm the HR abt signing of the contract too...now need to find 2 assurities to assure i wun abscond with the $$ to an unknown carribean island...haha...yah i wish man...in my dreams probly...

caught up with TR and kenT yesterday aft work...had a simple dinner at cine food court and watched Borat...wah it muz be the most farnie show i have watched like in a decade lah...haha...really super farnie some of the jokes...laugh until i almost pengsan...though some of the jokes in the movie r rather insulting and lame...but it is portrayed in such a way that pple dun feel offended but instead will laugh abt it no matter whether u r a Jew, Christian, Muslim (maybe not the kazaks though...lol)...super kao siao some of the scenes...Ali G is really so natural in this role that for the whole movie i am realy deceived by him that it is a real-life person i am watching...he deserves an Oscar man this fella...the movie too...the ironic thing is he is actually a Jew in real life...can never forget some of the scenes...the Jewish bed & breakfast inn...the charismatic church congregation...the naked wrestling at the hotel (and tt classic "69" move)...hahaha...tinking abt it juz makes me laugh...seriously give him an Oscar man!

went for some dessert at NYDC Heeren...ordered one mudpie each...and shared in an ah gualy fashion with bevies of gals surrounding our tables...heh...went for some pool action at monster andden home sweet home...yet another enjoyable nite wif good old friens...

and of coz another super old good frien is back frm his US stint...haha...juz went out with gabe...his house for swimming in the morning in frigid waters...den crystal jade for lunch in town...caught up aft never see him for mths...still the same old gabe i know...as charming as ever...haha...concluded over a toast of coffeebean - our fav talk cock hangout tt US has changed both our mindsets no doubt...in a good way i suppose...anyway juz glad to have him back...once again yandao enjoy ur "high net worth income" Shell IA...lol..and of coz happy belated bday! my only wish for u is to finally have that someone to celebrate with u come 2007...heh

gifts from gabe...a t-shirt frm hawaii and bottle opener cum fridge magnet frm san frans

attention everyone!! muz watch this upcoming chn8 show...wah kaoz so qiao mediacorp film a show abt life in shipyard...supposedly to attract "talents" into the maritime industry...but can someone pls tell me where to find ann kok...jeanette aw and dawn yeoh in a shipyard? i wanna ask for transfer...hahaha

no doubt the news of the day...the execution of a tyrant...hopefully peace will be restored in Iraq with this milestone in history

Tomolo is 31st december...the last day of 2006...2006...a watershed year for me personally...a year that changed my life completely...will be back for one last entry tomolo before i close off my blogging journey officially...reflections for 2006...resolutions for 2007...so stay tune while i am off for some Sat EPL action!! Come on Liverpool!!!

"Let it snow (rain)...let it snow (rain)...let it snow (rain)..."

"Jingle Bells...jingle Bells...jingle all the way..."

Warning: Unusually long blog ahead...got much to catch up aft 2 weeks of non activity...hee

yelo everybody...i'm back!! yes yes yes...i know i haven blog for like more than 2 weeks or so...muz be the longest time i have stopped blogging since my inaugural blog entry in april...also muz be too long never blog liao...now blog also trying hard to "squeeze" the words out...unlike at the peak of my blogging craze in US when the words juz flow out like nothing...haha...in fact there were times when i wanna blog over the past 2 weeks abt my working life in the shipyard and catching up with friens and so on...but den somehow blogged halfway den dunno wad to write...got such thing call blogger's block anot?? heh...maybe also using the right side of my brain too much with all the engin stuff at work...the creative or left side of my brain are not utilised as much these days...all these explains why i haven been blogging...haha

and of coz shagged lah my work...i need to report at sembawang shipyard at 7.45am every morning...and that means having to wake up at 6plus in the morning...andden leave my office at ard 5.45pm each day...if never meet friens...go home on another dreary one hour bus-mrt journey...eat dinner...watch tv...check mail...read newspapers andden the nxt thing i know my hp alarm clock sounding again at 6.15am...haha...working life quite shagged ah...somemore in a shipyard...heh...

more on my shipyard work now...i'm attached to a Project Office currently building an oil rig...the 1st of its kind which semb shipyard is building...i am actually very thankful that they attached me to so called "outfield" rather than to the main office (which kenny and YX are stranded...haha)...really learn so much more than wad i know and learn in sch...in fact i know nuts abt oil rigs coz haven start to specialise yet mah...but over the past 2 weeks...have really learned a lot technical aspects of building an oil rig...a jack-up one to be exact...not only that...also getta learn abt the organization and structure of a project office...like the diff depts such as hull, electrical, mechanical, logistics, heavy lift, piping and such...didn't know a project can be so complex as such...last time thought juz building only wad how difficult can it get...as such the past 2 weeks have really given me a good feel of the system & working culture in a shipyard...and a good background for my longer 12-week VIP in May and of coz my 2 years bond in the yard and hopefully beyond...hee..hope can come back to this proj in May again and hopefully also they attached me to a proj when i grad come 2008...

it's been a fruitful and accomplishing 2 weeks at the yard...of coz thanks in large part to the proj manager aloy...a gregarious man whose charisma simply exudes thruout whenever he conducts the daily safety meeting with the area managers...foremen...safety officers and contractors...his enthusiasm despite working in the yard for like 35 years simply rubs off on anybody...and i really hope to learn as much as i can from him...and of coz special mention to my mentor mike...area manager for heavy lift and logisitics and currently serving his bond...haha...really showed me ard the yard...bringing me to all the depts to get to know the pple in the yard...and of coz patiently answering wadever questions i got...juz like a big brother guiding the little one...and the rest of the proj office for making me feel at home...there's juz that sort of bond between pple in a project office when they r all working towards a common goal...and i dun really feel any animosity or so called "office politics" between the pple which the environment i kindda of like...and besides i'm definitely more of an on-the-go person rather than a deskbound one...haha

as such a typical day for me will start with a 10min morning exercise in frt of the office building porch...yes it's a standard exercise routine for all workers in the yard...ala the all-too familiar great s'pore workout...aftwhich changed to my coveralls...den read the spec mannual...technical primers and engin drawings...jot down notes...andden cycle to the site for the daily safety and progress meeting...yah man the yard is so freaking big...and u really need a bike to move ard esp with my office at one corner of the yard...aftwhich follow by my own site exploration...in and ard the rig...den ride off for a "shipyard tour"...haha...yah free and easy really...but of coz lah i cycle ard all the docks to "look look" lah...the more u move the more u look the more u learn rite...haha...even board an oil tanker on my own to see how it is like...shagged ah go up...heh...den go back office if got time ask mike some questions follow by more reading...den lunch...hurray!!!

aft lunch normally stay in office for a while den go down to the site if weather permits...still remem my 1st day was like a baptism of "water"...taking shelter with blanghas and my bosses underneath a makeshift attap roof...went home without socks that day...coz soaked like to the max with all the flooding at the site...damn pathetic really...lol...den if no events like safety briefing or meetings or wad...go back for more reading...so my job juz to look...observe and learn...heh...yah lah wad ya expect me to do...175million project ask a half-past-six student to take part meh?? heh...but things will be diff the nxt time i'm back...no more such carefree role...added responsibility...added stress and of coz added $$...hee

the oil rig project i am attached to...looking to be completed by 1st Quarter 2008

Asian Hercules...as the name suggests...used to lift extreme heavy loads...the largest floating crane local shipyards use

heavy lifting in action

Premier Dock...the largest grave dock in the shipyard...it's quite scary looking down to be honest

Malaysia ahead...sometimes my phone can even detect malaysia signals...juz an idea how far i am working man

in full gear...certainly back to my lifeguard colours...haha

view from atop the tanker i boarded...btw semb shipyard is the biggest in s'pore...occupying 83ha in total

an ongoing ship conversion project

where they keep all the new cars pending COE release...wah lao everyday i confirm drop by here see see...see can shunbian drive one back anot...lol

caught up with the bulk of my friens over the past 2 weeks...mp&c buddies...NP gathering...leong...the fab4...over steamboat buffet...ala carte...western food...and tepanyaki...always a nice feeling to catch up with old friens...esp now when everyone is like busy with studies over the sem...and career aft they grad...harder to catch up...so always try to make it a point to catch up with each group come holidays...a simple meal and catching up more than sufficient...recalling the old times over beer and such...can be quite heartwarming ain't it...still got left 4-10 and class18 pple haven meet up...hopefully can meet up before the new sem starts...

looking ahead to nxt week's highlights:

1. exam results out on tues!! wah koaz feeling those nervous pangs again...one click to decide the fate of ur entire sem...super cruel...in fact got leak of results on last Sat...nb got the news already too late liao...looks like Tuesday is destined to be D-day...

2. Bidding of modules...wah lin...haven even enjoy my hols now muz plan mods liao...even b4 the results are out...damn crappy...sighz...happy times always seem to fly by...

3. email of details for signing of contract...that's it once it is signed...no looking back liao

4. Gabe returning frm US...haha...yd dun cry when u see this...u r a highlight...hahaha

5. dinner with TR and Ken T (to be confirmed)

wad a rainy christmas eve...in fact wad a downpour it has been over the week...adding a tinge of chill and at the same time a feeling of warmth to the festive air...went for my 1st sunday service this morning...cannot be more symbolic since it falls on christmas eve...christmas takes on a more added meaning for me this year...as a born-again believer...celebrating the birth of Christ...for Christmas is the day to rejoice and come together with ur loved ones to celebrate the birth of Jesus, the only son of God whom He sent to die for all our sins...

Here's wishing all my friens a Merry Merry and a simply Merry Chirstmas...may God bless each and everyone of you...be it ur family...loved ones...studies...work or health...Merry Christmas!!

I am typing this blog in a stupendously high...fantastically buoyant...super exhilarated mood...sembcorp juz called to tell me they offering me the scholarship!!! wah kaoz...i really can't believe it...it's really too good to be true...i am really not expecting it seriously speaking coz my grades are really not the "scholarly" kind...and i tink i sound a bit cocky during the interview...hahaha...wah i am really very happy they giving me such a golden opportunity like this...pardon me as i am on cloud 999...a gift from above...Thank God for everything...for paving and lighting the path ahead for me...now at least i know which direction i shud go...no longer the little lost lamb wandering out there...

the HR told me to go down to sign the contract next week...haha juz nice i will be der anyway...signing away 2 years of my life...told Pa immediately...YJ who happen to be online...msged ying...den msged ken...genie in JB dunno contactable anot...i am really so happy...that this feeling will really take some time to filtrate through...fancy calling myself a "scholar"...haha...too good to be true...life is certainly good as i mentioned to YJ...the $$ will definitely come in handy for sure...now waiting for the email for more details abt the signing nxt week...whoowhee....quick anyone wans a treat from me pls leave ur name under comments below...hahaha

really a fantastic news to receive early in the morning...rite aft the stressful exams somemore...really shoot up high to the max!! went for a morning run early in the morning...and juz feel charged up for the day...and come back got this piece of fantastic news...i never feel so happy for a long time really...and this feeling will prob spread thru the remaining days of 2006...2006 wad a year for me really...haha

ying accompanied me to go some shopping yesterday...for my working clothes nxt week...aft 2 hours of galivanting..finally settled on 2 long sleeve frm Carrefour PS and one navy pants frm John Little...all well within budget and value for $$...haha...tink i look presentable too...at least according to my fashion consultant...dragged my sis out with me even though she only slept 5 hours coz of her prom nite and her boss decided to give her off yesterday...haha...muz made full use of her when she's free...that's wad sisters are for...hee

watched flags of our fathers with ying aft that at GV...a remarkably meaningful and deep movie on WWII...directed by clint eastwood and produced by steven spielberg...based on a true story on a bestseller that stayed in top of New York Times for a record 46 weeks...i always love war shows...counting among my favs like "Saving Private Ryan"..."Black Hawk Down"..."Windtalkers" and one vietnam war show which i can't remem the title that i watched when i was a kid...they never fail to inspire me always...but this movie is quite diff from those throwing mortars and bombs scenes (there are still though)...it explores deeper to the definition of heroes...why there is no such thing call heroes because heroes are wad we depict and create them to be...i really love watching how the story unfolds behind the flag raisers of the flag on iwo jima that came to be such an icon for US marines...and there is even another similar movie by the same director called "Letters of Iwo Jima" coming up...an unprecedented 2 movie projects shot back to back at the same location...telling 2 sides of the story of iwo jima...the americans and the japs...examining the clash of 2 of civilization's greatest cultures...brillant move...definitely will catch it when it is released...hate to admit this...but this is my 1st movie in almost 6 months...the last one is da vinci code in wildwood...damn paiseh...haha

another good news...insurance finally settled...CIEE emailed to say the insurance company decided to claim the full sum despite me not able to provide the full police report...really a sigh of relief...episode closed finally...

Post Blog sentiments: Finally...a great day to relish...clinching the scholarship no doubt is a good achievement...but i believe it can only motivate me further from now...the responsibilities and challenges of a scholarship holder...i relish it...once again...Thank God for everything planned out for me...

free as a bird in the vast blue skies...unrestrained like a fish in the titanic oceans...liberated from all the academic confines for now...spared from all the scholastic constraints for the moment...in 3 simple words..."Exams over loh!!"

enough of all assignments...tutorials...essays...lab reports...tests...enough of waking up early and squeezing the mrt den again fighting to go up 96...enough of LT2...MPSH...engin canteen...and now finally after almost 4 months...i am free again...exams over lo!!! wah kaoz really feel damn shiok the minute "Time's up. Stop writing" was sounded across MPSH1...feel like one 10 tonner off mine shoulders the minute i hear that...really damn shiok...that kind of "shiok" is really indescribable...unexplainable...beyond words...that "high" u hit twice a year...albeit after almost 4 months of intense and rigourous mental drilling...quite saddistic to achieve such "high" ah i muz say...but still those who have been thru such a saddistic system wud know how i am feeling at the moment...come share my euphorism...spread the joy...Christmas is coming...haha

took a cab from outram mrt to sch today...ken msged to say got mrt delay in the morning...anyway left my house too late also...too used to genie waiting for me at clementi...haha...so bobian...decided to relac myself before the draining 2 hours ahead by taking a cab...anyway a little luxury wun hurt ur pockets sometimes...the paper...hmmmn...i wud say 50-50...quite tricky...and nb the lecturers set the questions all over the place without following the sequence...can hear pple flipping their text and notes with a "tsk" sound now and den...felt a steaming pressure at the start of the paper...really feel like screaming out loud seriously...not juz this but for other papers as well...tink putting too much pressure and expectations on myself for this sem...haiz...but still manage to complete the Bio paper ahead of time...correct or wrong dun care already...time to party!!

aft paper went with ken to wisma food republic for lunch...had a quite solid hokkien mee...aft exams everything juz taste nice lah...issn't it? haha...went off to far east to cut hair...muz look good for internship next week...speaking abt it...got an email saying muz report at 7.45am nxt mon...wah kaoz 7.45am all the way at sembawang...that means havin to wake up at 6 lah...seriously army style...wonder how it will be like...muz shop for some working wear soon...

went for a slow easy run ard good old farrer...the grand old dame and cradle of singapore sports...feels really shiok (this is the how many times i'm repeating shiok...haha)...time to flex those muscles...ok this time i muz be really disciplined...muz run every week day...10 minutes...20 minutes also can...muz work out...planing for a swim tml...training for my shipyard stint next week!!

time for a really really good sleep...i am sure it will turn out to be the best sleep i will have in months...no worries...carefree once again...and free from the shackles of school...will be rejuvenated, recharged, refreshed and above all reborn come tml morning...ready to plan out more holidays...yipeee...i am on top of the world!! the simple delights in life...finishing yet another sem...

Postnote: have been contemplating lately whether to cease my blogging activities soon...aft all this blog was set up for USA WAT'06 and Canada SEP'07...now that my canadian dreams are all but in smoke...and besides losing the passion for blogging liao...not due to anything...juz simply the enthusiasm fading away loh...quite surprised i can actually go on blogging abt my boring sem...haha...see how lah...maybe will still blog if i go for long holidays like WAT...but doubt it will be happening soon...since this hols and the next one wud be most prob spent in a shipyard...and next yr this time wud be probably scratching my veins out from my brain for FYP...lol...so earliest wud be graduation trip'08 (tentatively konichiwa Japan!!!)...heh in any case wud still blog meanwhile...but most likely my last post wud come before the clock strikes 2007!! wud keep u guys posted...wun not juz end so abruptly...not my style u know...hee

Ahhhh ha...geh wo yi beh wan qing shui...lalalalalalala...

paiseh juz love to sing when i am studying...esp late at nite...or either that i will talk to myself...ask myself questions...read out the text...helps to keep me awake u know...haha...little weird studying habits of mine for sharing...

Woooh finally a breather...had a hectic past 2 days...with geotech and PS back to back...feel so suffocating with 2 heavyweight modules back to back...one requires so much technical knowledge...the other need to remember so many political ideologies and jargons...seriously it is stretching my left and right brain to the max...on the verge of burnout...feel like strangling somebody to let off some steam...

that's really how i feel like yesterday aft the damn geotech paper...wah kaoz really chui...i dun have enough time to finish the paper...and for the bulk of it...i was juz blindly drawing and frantically copying from the lect notes and tutorials with no idea wad i am writing 90% of the time (the other 10% i am sure is when i write my matric number)...it's really very bad...esp when some creeps are actually finding it okay...really knn...totally chui this module...got the spirit of ma1506 rearing its ugly memories...ma1506...the worst paper i ever sat in my life...staring at the ceiling for a good half hour...kan even do the simple matrix questions at the back...and somehow i am still trying to comprehend how i manage to escape with a miraculous "B"...wun be so lucky this time i guess...

there goes my little dreams of making the Dean's List at the start of my exams...yes yes i know wad u tinking...somebody aiming for the Dean's List?? but seriously and honestly...i did harbour faint hopes of making the eluded List for the very 1st time with such unprecedented CA marks...call me ambitious or wad i dun care...but i do feel there is a realistic chance of even trying for it this sem...but there goes all hopes aft geotech...vanishing into the skies or rather the smelly air of LT7A (i hate taking exams in LTs and on a sleepy aftnoon somemore!!!)...there goes wadever faint hopes i have...demoralising...juz like my beloved Liverpool...title hopes vanishing into thin air with such promise at the start of the season...sighzzz...haizzz...alas still got champs league to aim for though...hopefully still can see a 4 this sem...i wud still be very happy...hee

PS still relatively ok...considering my peculiar likeness for arts gems...haha...times like this when i start to wonder wad am i doing in engin?? haiz...still if someone wud turn back time for me...i wud still have chosen this path today...no regrets...made my mind and juz have to stick to this path...good or bad is my responsibility...no one else to blame...i love engin!! (trying hard to sound excited)...haha

off to my Bio aft this...doubt i wun be doing much studying this weekend anyway...it is juz the last paper effect...somemore open book...MCQ...wah kaoz...all the more no mood lah...heh...

mummy's Bday on wed...too bad me and hong still havin exams...not able to go out to eat and celebrate for her...nvm next year her BIG 50...will throw a feast for her come next year...

Sen Ri Kuai Le Mummy!! I love my Mummy!! (getting harder for a 23 year old to say so public these days =p)